Faith

Perhaps I did not have enough faith in God. I went to church these past few weeks, and I learnt a lot there. Before I accepted Christ, I did not feel anything and have strength to face hardship. Now, I feel much better since I have started attending church. When I feel utterly stressed out or worn out, I will feel very peaceful and calm after singing praise and worship. According to Danny, my lovely housemate, it is because the Holy Spirit has taken away all of your stress so you'll feel better. Thanks him for enlightening me about that.

I am taught about forgiveness in church. Sometimes I would wonder if there would still be the force, lawyers and armies if there were to exist complete forgiveness. Guess not. When I was taught about forgiveness, I was so inspired and I'm learning to forgive people now. Glad that I do not make enemies and I never hate anyone. So I need not forgive anyone. XD Give me a standing ovation, will you? Well, it is, in fact, not easy to forgive someone - if it was, there would not be so many cases and wars that had induced so many deaths. So people, learn to forgive.

I had always thought that the world only revolved around my close friends and our own topics of conversation. Well, u can see me very talkactive and laugh a lot when it comes to certain topics of conversation I am interested in. However, I will remain absolute silent when it comes to general knowledge and lame jokes. I surrender! I am trying to accept, though. Perhaps God wants me to be exposed more as He seems implying that there are still many people having different characteristics and personalities that we must try to mingle around with.

Sometimes when you pray to God and tell Him how you want something to come true, it may not go as smoothly as you desired it to because it needs time and God knows what and when it is best for us. So we need to be patient and wait for Him to answer our prayers. The most important thing is that we always need to have full trust in Him and stay wherever we are. Do not compare with other people because He himself has His plans for us.

Sometimes I do not feel like talking - I do not know whether this is a "maturity syndrome" or whatever it is, but just do not feel like it. I want to be the real me again : a person who always laughs for hours as he used to, a person who talks a lot as he used to, a person who likes games as he used to. It is time for me to seek the REAL ME again after wandering for so long. It's for me to lean on Him again. Be done, Amen.